credits to : him
Well, i really need the chance now.
I was out with Mr C earlier and everything went well as always.
On the way home, we talked like we usually do,
making fun of each other, bla bla bla.
In the midst of the conversation, i blurted out something that is totally stupid and insensitive.
I said to him what maybe we could be friends. just friends.
...
Its no surprise he would be mad about it.
what would you expect if a girlfriend would say that to her boyfriend...
His reaction was a natural.
He asked me do i really want to call us off.
And i kept shut.
He sent me home, but he didnt stop by at home like he always does.
He was hurt, i can tell.
credits to : this
Yes, i admit it was something that i have had at the back of my head for quite some time.
But i always thought there would be no circumstances that i would actually need those words.
What i need is a conversation about us.
About our relationship.
And i did not mean that i wanted to break up.
I just want to say that, well, im happy enough to be in this relationship now and i intend to keep our status this way.
I have no idea why i could blurt that out all of a sudden.
Since what happened already happened,
and i obviously do not have a time machine to turn back time,
the most i could do now is pray.
like i should always do.
I believe that sometimes things happen just because they should be.
Maybe we need this.
Maybe this is suppose to happen so that something else can happen.
Maybe we could found our peace this way.
Maybe this is the time for us to go back, and review.
Should he accept what i said, i would thanked him.
Should he not, i would thanked him too.
But i really want to talk this over properly.
Since it have been too long that we avoid talking about us.
I , for one, am admitting, that i have always been avoiding that.
Whatever it is,
i was happy when i was with him.
If we are meant to be together, then we will.
If today is our expiration date, then so be it.
All we have to do, is pray to Allah.
Should it end, we could never asked for a better ending.
Should we not, we could never asked for a better intervention.
It was my mistake, and i`m sorry.
I really wish you would ask me why i said that... AND give me a chance to explain it to you.
But no matter what it is,
i will always love you.
** Jom kita solat istikharah, mintak Allah tunjukkan siapakah jodoh kita berdua. Amin.
credits to : her
