N.E.E.D.N.E.S.S.

I NEED…!

I need a booster..not drugs, mind you, but I need summat that can boost up my sense of… wanting-ness…

why do I feel like I don’t have a wanting for anything.

alrite, I know that sentence is full of grammatical errors, but hell, this is mine I can do whatever I wanna to.

I have tons of homework..

I always usually do.

note : more grammatical errors.

I think im tired, yeah I think that is…

is it weird if I say that I dun think I have that fluffy feelings yet?

even if I have a bf, I just dun have that feeling to care about people yet.

I dun have that feeling of jealousy like every girl should have whenever their bf talks to other girls.

but im not like that.

I always do whatever I wanna do, but sometimes I wish I could do something that I never thought id do.

u know, like climbing a mountain, or punching someone rite in the face, yeah, ive nvr done that b4..i wish I had.

I dun wanna waste my age of youth doing things I wont remember doing..things that are not worth of wasting any part of the cell in my brain.

I have memories, but sometimes I wonder whether the memories are real, or is it just me that wanted it to be real

you might think im psycothic. I thought so too..

so yeah, I guess I am. lolz.

butu since I could confess I am one, so i guess I am not really one.

my sis once said to me that, if one are what they claim they are, that means they are not what they said they are.

get it?

no?

daijoubu, its not important anyways.

hmm, I love writing.. I do.

a lot.

n I meant to start my own fanfic , but I nvr have the time to do so.

I nvr have the time to do anything I wanna do, instead, I did stuff that I nvr meant to make in the first place.

we are all like that.

y r we like that?

its weird..y do we always do things that we dun wanna do instead of spending those precious time doing stuff that wont make us regret should we die there and then.

“ live today like theyre no tomorrow”

if I were to follow exactly like that, I would’ve spent the whole day with all my family and friends and not a second with these stupid math formulas or incoherent sentences of babblish-ly written text books.

I have two tests next week, im not stressed up, im just… tired.

tired of doing the same thing over and over again but not remembering anything regardi9ng what I have done.

I guess I really do have a memory of a goldfish, or that blue-ish friend of nemo`s memory.

hee

but if I were to look at it at a different perspective, its kinda good to forget real fast, coz I wont be able to have too many bad memories.

what do you choose..

1. nvr able to forget good memories, as well as bad ones and be haunted forever…

or

2. able to forget everything and anything including the good ones and the bad ones, and forever be enigmatic…

im not sure I meant what I meant but yeah…

I would’ve choose no 1.

*sigh*

im tired.

I guess im a bit emo-ish today.

I put the blame on my comfy bed for seducing me to sleep for more than 5 hours during the day.

im used to not have enough sleep, once I have too many sleep, I can be impulsive or too moody sometimes.

aish, women and their hormones.

lolz.

im signing out-

*choco*~

18^th august 2007

11:45 pm